A collection of half-finished thoughts

I’ve come a long way from saving my ramblings as “gksdj” or “doc one” on my computer. I’m ready to share with the world.

kjacobacci — Wed, 13 Aug 2008 05:47:15 +0000

I have several short essays to post…I will be putting them up very soon.

It’s a Death Cab for Cutie sort of night

kjacobacci — Mon, 28 Jul 2008 05:28:48 +0000

DCFC is always thought provoking

It, along with other things, inspires me to try and give up my anger in place of compassion

This is my attempt.

From now on, I want to try to live more peacefully, let things go and just enjoy life more.

I shouldn’t waste my time being angry about things that don’t matter anyway.

I hope by trying this new path, I’ll work out my relationship problems and become a better person in general with something positive to contribute to the world.

So, here it goes.

Today, I start.

We’ll see how it goes. We’ll see if my life changes for the better.

Thanks kyle.

Philosophy: This should have been my entry into that contest…

kjacobacci — Mon, 21 Jul 2008 05:29:34 +0000

Philosophy: Do not waste your time with envy. We are all our own people. We may believe that we would be better off with a friend’s significant other, job, or even their life, and in response I say: we are all given our own set of circumstances. No two people in this world are alike. Therefore, it is impossible to think that we could have the same enviable outcome in a situation as other individuals.

Do not let envy consume your life; unless we learn to love ourselves we can never learn to love another. Enjoy the things that have been given to you instead of focusing on the things that have not. Once you have learned how to do this, it is not that good things will come to you but rather that you will appreciate the good things that you already have.

Freeform Falling

kjacobacci — Sun, 18 May 2008 04:52:09 +0000

Missed opportunities define my life.

I don’t want to miss this one

I don’t want to miss out on this

Who would have thought that in the wake of my biggest defeat

I would find my greatest achievement

And my greatest potential challenge

I never want to give up

I want to get this

I outran my potential years ago

A beautiful soul? Beauty is defined

You’d never scream so loud

Through a true connection

Maybe I should stay for this

Are you gonna be something?

Untitled-For now

kjacobacci — Tue, 13 May 2008 22:49:26 +0000

“I fell in love again, all things go, all things go”

-Chicago, Sufjan Stevens

It seems to me now that the teen years are generally portrayed as a spiraling abyss of depression, hopelessness, and bad choices. It’s ironic to think that we’ve always been told that our teen years would be the “best years of our lives.” If you look at the general public consensus of teen-hood as well as the typical mindset of teenagers, it’s not difficult to see that these ‘precious’ years contain some of the worst trials and ordeals that we’ll ever have to endure. Why is that? Why do we make our teen years such a bleak time in our lives? Sure, some people claim that they loved their time in high school and would give anything to be 18 again. For most people, that’s bullshit. They may have loved high school, loved their friends, free spirititedness, youth, but when they really go back and think about it, their teen years probably sucked. The main themes of being a teenager are hopeless love, backstabbing and untrustworthy friends, and insecurity. Look at movies such as Mean Girls. It’s meant to be funny, but what the movie really shows is a view into the lives of typical teenagers. All teenage years are plagued with relative ‘tragedy;’ ordeals that destroy the soul and mind. There is no reason for this to be the case. We have created this concept of what being a teen really is. Why should we make ourselves miserable over teenage love, why should we treat our friends with contempt and distrust, why should we hate our very own beings because they don’t conform to a standard that we have created?

When we become teenagers, we expect our lives to become dramatic tragedies. We are looking for that boy-stealing best friend, those people that criticize our appearance, and the ultimate unattainable love. It’s what drives the teenage soul. Where would we be without our extreme drama and depression? From my point of view, every single teenager I’ve met has had something that keeps them down, some real or imagined problem that prevents them from being truly happy. Even people who seem like they have the perfect life and perfect relationships really have some deep, dark secret which is what drives them to depression just like everyone else. Nobody I’ve met is actually happy. They might have relative happiness for a time, but eventually their problems bring them down just like everyone else. This mindset has to change. Youth is something you can only have once, and we throw it all away in a mire of depression over things that won’t matter five years from now anyway.